I’m a teacher now, incase you’re wondering where I’ve been.
Have I graduated college? The answer is not yet… I will be graduating this December. I still don’t know how I feel about it. I’ve been waiting for this moment since I started college. All of these years went by and here I am, in a few short months I’ll be a college graduate. A real adult. I will no-longer just be a “college student”. I don’t know how I feel about losing that title. Does this mean I now actually need to know how to do things… like taxes, voting, and remembering to get my oil changed? Apparently, yes. Nonetheless, I’ve been doing these things for a while now. Something about not being college anymore scares me.
I’m a Teacher!?
I am a teacher now. Not just an intern. At my school, I was given the opportunity to participate in the STAR Internship Program. The school and county which I live in work together and placed me into a school that needed a 2nd grade teacher. I am completing my level II internship simultaneously while being the full-time teacher of record. It’s a unique experience. The perks… I get my OWN classroom, and I get paid. Not much, but it’s something. The workload is intense. But, I’m happy. I’m really glad I made this decision. Best of all, I get a mentor and a supervisor to help guide me in the right direction. I was lucky enough to get a couple, husband and wife. They’re the dream team! I couldn’t do this without their support. People really do enter your life for a reason.
Am I Happy?
Right now, yes. I still keep questioning everything though. I hope that this will be my career for a very long time. But I just don’t know the answer to that question. Those of you who know me, know that I worked for nearly 3 years in the emergency room as an emergency medical tech. I loved that job. I knew it wasn’t my “career” but I definitely thought it was a stepping stone into the medical field. One day I woke up and decided to change everything. I realized that the medical field perhaps wasn’t for me. Within a few weeks I had changed my major and found a new job. I started my classes for education immediately. I was feeling pretty sure of myself. But teaching is NOT easy. It’s nothing like you would think on the outside. People who don’t know any better think teachers have it made. “Oh you get weekends, holidays and summers off! Must be nice.” If you came into my classroom and slightly even tried to fathom what my workday is like you might just understand. Teachers don’t just teach the ABC’s and 123’s. We have to motivate and inspire our students. We teach curriculum sure, but we also teach manners, social skills, morals, and how to communicate. The kind of skills one couldn’t function without. We are creating the future. Now that’s some hard work.
So understand that teaching is not a walk in the park. My stress level is equivalent to everyone in “The Office” during the fire drill. Just to give you an idea.